I hate these days/ day 5!

Alright well this post will need to be editted later on today as I have of yet done ANYTHING!

Last night something horrible happened, Ethan, Alex, Caleb and James were playing in the garden well I cleaned the house and I got a phone call. Apparently they were shouting abuse at a little girl in there class as she walked home with her mom!!!!!! Do you all remember being young as in (4-7 years) I would never be mean to someone then, but if i was I definatly wouldn't have the balls to do it when there mom or dad was present!!!! I am so ashamed of my kids right now. I brought them in and they all had a time out until they were picked up (or in my kids case Daddy came home). I then talked to them told them they made this sweet girl cry and how would they feel then got them to write apology letters and off we went to hand deliver them so we all could apologise.


Today has been no differant then last night!!!! I woke up with a stuffed nose Which sucks as breathing through my shred is now going to be a bit more difficult. Anyways the boys are having fathers day coffee for dad today and they got the kids to write the cards Ethan's says 9:30-10AM (I re checked upon coming home from school) Well 8:30 and the kids all in school and Im about to leave but see Ethan outside looking rather distressed, so I ran over and asked him why he wasn't inside and what he was doing his reply "Looking for Daddy he promised he was going to be here" followed by his teacher coming out and telling me it's fathers day coffee NOW 8:30-9:00AM My poor wee man now feels daddy stood him up I am so upset. I talked with the teacher and when Drew arrives at 9:30 he will be allowed a quick coffee and doughnut in the hallway with Ethan so thats a bit better but my poor baby will still think Daddy forgot, no big deal for some but a massive one for me, and Drew who when talked to on the phone feels like crap as well. Then got home and my bad day continued, I put coffee in the Microwave as never had a chance to drink it earlier and it EXPLODED!!!! The kids (Mason, Mason and Serena0 are in such a mood today, no sharing lots of fighitng and LOADS of tears Arghhh please please stop little beans.

Seriously someone cut me a break PLEASE.


Sami's Journey

Day 5!!!! Most people say they start seeing changes at this point, to be honest I haven't but I have been looking at myself in the mirror every night looking for change LOL. I feel bloated and gross because of last ngiht, feel I really let myself down, and feel so ill motivated. I did my Shred at 11AM (instead of normal 9am). I didn't tihnk I was going to do it but did and feel happy but like Im going to puke (sign of a good session I suppose.)

Still not smoking but have a BBQ with loads of friends tonight (all who smoke) so needing my biggest will power EVER today.